Finals week is officially OVER! I'm completely finished with my classes for the term and have THREE GLORIOUS WEEKS OF FREEDOM! I can't even tell you how happy I am it's ridiculous.
HUGE sigh of relief...
I can't seem to drop this strong feeling(strong usually means confirmed especially w/me) that even though he's witnessed me knocking out pages upon pages of papers, and cramming dozens of books into my brain this past week for research papers...Brent remains unconvinced that I might actually graduate one day. As if having a child could stop me? I've passed all my classes for the term while being in a coma for 3 of the 10 weeks, how is it that he still doubts me? Question's I'll have to find the answers to later I'm sure. Regardless of said husband's obvious doubts I'm confident in my own abilities to do this, a little sad now? Maybe.
Still confident? Yes.
I've recently gotten over the stomach flu, this last week has been hell and tomorrow is my first day to sit and not think. No thinking for a whole day. Somebody pinch me.
Can you tell I'm happy? Well alright then.
Goodnight.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Saturday, December 3, 2011
My eggo is preggo...
I've contemplated keeping up with this blog, or trashing it. Overall I needed to know what it could really do for me. What was it's point? If I didn't write a masterpiece everytime then there was no point. Then I realized even if I did manage to create something beautiful and outspoken...who the hell would read it?
That's when it hit me. I don't need a work of art to get out my thoughts or feelings, I'm just writing it for me and my own sanity. To be completely honest the modern day woman needs at least one place to be heard, even if it is in a giant ocean of blogs.
I'm sure the title tipped you off, I'm pregnant! Woohoo! Holy sh%$! Thank God! Here we go...
Full time at PSU, full time office manager, mom to a 7 year old, wife to a 27 year old, best friend, daughter, and now...expectant mother. I'm thinking of taking up an exciting hobby aside from blogging that sounds a little more adventerous. Windsurfer(I haven't done it in years but why not?) Anything to get out of this suzie Q homemaker image I'm building for myself.
To be fair it's really a wonderful life, I feel extremely lucky to be where I am today considering it wasn't always this smooth. Maybe that's it though, I've always had a crazy life and now that I'm settled down and on the straight and narrow I'm getting sidetracked with fantasies of booking a one way ticket to Vegas...lol. Alright, I'd never do that but still. Sounds exciting right?
The pregnancy was discovered on November 6th 2011, my dear husband was persistant that I take it immediately after he realized I had just eaten a whole jar of pickels and half of our frozen chicken dumplings in one sitting....or maybe it was after he realized this when I was asking if we had anything to make mashed potatoes and gravy. Looking back I was showing every symptom, random dizziness caused by never before experienced inner ear problems, food poisening, and how I was always sleeping? Should have tipped me off. Afterall, this isn't my first rodeo.
The biggest joy I've encountered during this new development was the ultrasound, it went well and the heartbeat was right on target, a solid 150 beats per minute (silencing the old wives tale of the faster or slower than 150 determining a boy or a girl). Brent(the hubby) has decided to quit smoking, GREAT! So excited...especially now that he's being a raving lunatic anytime we're stationary for longer than 15 minutes and he's not distracted. Love the man but he's being a flippin nutjob. I've actually thought about buying a pack so he'll stop being so difficult. That is the wrong move I know so no lecturing please but seriously, there's only room for one crazy person in this house now adays, and I'm not sharing.
For Thanks giving we surprised the family with wallet sized ultrasound pictures of the peanut with a title "Baby **** summer 2012" and placed them under the plates for everyone to see come dinner time. My sister in law just announced her pregnancy and had set the table so I didn't know but everyone had just assumed it was their baby's ultrasound. Until they saw the name of the patient in the top left hand corner. Too funny. It was a shock to everyone considering I had been so against starting a family with Brent until I made it through school, oh well, babies happen and everyone seems thrilled.
Tonight we're having dinner at our best friend's house, so I'll continue this little blip soon.
That's when it hit me. I don't need a work of art to get out my thoughts or feelings, I'm just writing it for me and my own sanity. To be completely honest the modern day woman needs at least one place to be heard, even if it is in a giant ocean of blogs.
I'm sure the title tipped you off, I'm pregnant! Woohoo! Holy sh%$! Thank God! Here we go...
Full time at PSU, full time office manager, mom to a 7 year old, wife to a 27 year old, best friend, daughter, and now...expectant mother. I'm thinking of taking up an exciting hobby aside from blogging that sounds a little more adventerous. Windsurfer(I haven't done it in years but why not?) Anything to get out of this suzie Q homemaker image I'm building for myself.
To be fair it's really a wonderful life, I feel extremely lucky to be where I am today considering it wasn't always this smooth. Maybe that's it though, I've always had a crazy life and now that I'm settled down and on the straight and narrow I'm getting sidetracked with fantasies of booking a one way ticket to Vegas...lol. Alright, I'd never do that but still. Sounds exciting right?
The pregnancy was discovered on November 6th 2011, my dear husband was persistant that I take it immediately after he realized I had just eaten a whole jar of pickels and half of our frozen chicken dumplings in one sitting....or maybe it was after he realized this when I was asking if we had anything to make mashed potatoes and gravy. Looking back I was showing every symptom, random dizziness caused by never before experienced inner ear problems, food poisening, and how I was always sleeping? Should have tipped me off. Afterall, this isn't my first rodeo.
The biggest joy I've encountered during this new development was the ultrasound, it went well and the heartbeat was right on target, a solid 150 beats per minute (silencing the old wives tale of the faster or slower than 150 determining a boy or a girl). Brent(the hubby) has decided to quit smoking, GREAT! So excited...especially now that he's being a raving lunatic anytime we're stationary for longer than 15 minutes and he's not distracted. Love the man but he's being a flippin nutjob. I've actually thought about buying a pack so he'll stop being so difficult. That is the wrong move I know so no lecturing please but seriously, there's only room for one crazy person in this house now adays, and I'm not sharing.
For Thanks giving we surprised the family with wallet sized ultrasound pictures of the peanut with a title "Baby **** summer 2012" and placed them under the plates for everyone to see come dinner time. My sister in law just announced her pregnancy and had set the table so I didn't know but everyone had just assumed it was their baby's ultrasound. Until they saw the name of the patient in the top left hand corner. Too funny. It was a shock to everyone considering I had been so against starting a family with Brent until I made it through school, oh well, babies happen and everyone seems thrilled.
Tonight we're having dinner at our best friend's house, so I'll continue this little blip soon.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Empty Handed
Behind those eyes you lie to me.
I never saw your soul.
Behind those eyes you cry to me.
Your heart will pay the toll.
I gave you every part of me, a beauty no one's seen.
You gave me lies of bravery, you've never spread those wings.
Go back to where you came from, & I'll try hard to forget.
The fear you live in constantly, will be your last regret.
You wont know just how good it feels, to take that hopeful leap...
With faith in love, she catches you, that sweet sigh of relief.
Surprised to find a woman that can heal all your scars?
I loved you for a moment, but you held me back with bars.
I'm tired & I'm lonely, you would never wait for me.
Yes I'm leaving empty handed, but that's all you'll ever be.
-Fallen Angel-
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray, I stood there loving you and wished them all away. Now you come away with a great little story, of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you. Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day. So just walk away, no use to fear the words that you will never say. Now that I'm sitting here thinking it through, I've never been anywhere as cold as you.
I never saw your soul.
Behind those eyes you cry to me.
Your heart will pay the toll.
I gave you every part of me, a beauty no one's seen.
You gave me lies of bravery, you've never spread those wings.
Go back to where you came from, & I'll try hard to forget.
The fear you live in constantly, will be your last regret.
You wont know just how good it feels, to take that hopeful leap...
With faith in love, she catches you, that sweet sigh of relief.
Surprised to find a woman that can heal all your scars?
I loved you for a moment, but you held me back with bars.
I'm tired & I'm lonely, you would never wait for me.
Yes I'm leaving empty handed, but that's all you'll ever be.
-Fallen Angel-
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray, I stood there loving you and wished them all away. Now you come away with a great little story, of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you. Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day. So just walk away, no use to fear the words that you will never say. Now that I'm sitting here thinking it through, I've never been anywhere as cold as you.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Choices
Blinding light illuminates the choices that I've made
Refusing to believe my path was carved from each mistake.
Misleading those that follow me, I'll take this road alone.
Resenting painful memories, if only I had known...
With every broken promise made, my fragile heart was tested.
Remembering the life I gave, to be this girl reflected.
I'm grateful for success I've earned, I thank God every night.
I pray for time to find someone, a love that feels right.
Through rhythmic beats and melodies, I'll sing to you my soul.
The parts of me you cannot see, the parts that make you whole.
Transcending from a darkened past, my future wasn't clear.
With hopes to find a love that lasts, I'm facing all my fears.
-Fallen Angel-
Crazy Beautiful
Misunderstood intentions are beyond your comprehension.
Silent thoughts never escape these pretty lips.
Corrupted angels sing my song, afraid of stringing love along.
Yet there is beauty coming from these fingertips.
Hesitate and I will have you,
You may laugh, because it's true.
This is something you cannot simply ignore.
I'm a fallen piece of heaven.
I am nothing that you need.
I am everything you've wanted in a girl.
Misconceptions create heartache
Loneliness will flood your mind.
It is then that you will love me...
because all I need is time.
Silent thoughts never escape these pretty lips.
Corrupted angels sing my song, afraid of stringing love along.
Yet there is beauty coming from these fingertips.
Hesitate and I will have you,
You may laugh, because it's true.
This is something you cannot simply ignore.
I'm a fallen piece of heaven.
I am nothing that you need.
I am everything you've wanted in a girl.
Misconceptions create heartache
Loneliness will flood your mind.
It is then that you will love me...
because all I need is time.
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